I don´t know how to describe how hard a mission is. I´m being put through trials that I didn´t think were possible. I can´t complain because I´m sure many people have passed difficulties much harder than what I´m passing. Every person is given the difficulties of which he can handle. We go step by step learning many wonderful truths that will forever change our personal character. This is what God wants for us. Some days this week I felt completely alone. I heard many insulting and discouraging words. I felt many wonderful opportunities of joy for our investigators leave. I felt that almost everything I was doing was wrong. I felt unappreciated, tired, and sad. I don´t mean to wine or make this sound like a diary, but I really felt these things. Thankfully I received a few general conferences talks from my mom which greatly helped. In the character of christ talk by David A Bednar contains a sentece that greatly helped me. It says something like this: As we pass sadness, pain, and difficulties, our capacity to love will increase. As I passed these horrible feelings of lonliness I was immediately reminded of my savior Jesus Christ, and my family, especially my mom. As I pass these pains I´ve never experienced before I recognize what Jesus Christ sacrificed for me, what my family sacrificed for me, and what my Mom sacrificed for me so that I could be who and where I am today. As I recognize more of the sufferings of others, my love for them greatly increases, and I want to have more mercy for them. If you ever pass a difficulty with faith and hope, God will help you. I do not doubt this fact. At no moment doing the lord´s work do I feel abandoned by God, and his angels. Every day I feel tender mercies of the Lord that help me to press forward. For example, God knows me perfectly, better than anyone else. So he knows that I love food. Especially good brazilian food. It´s delicous. In the middle of a fight between my companion and I, a sister from our ward knocked on our door and gave us a loaf of bread. The fight stopped and we ate bread. Yesterday we got soaked in the rain. I was freezing. We had to planned to go with a member to teach the couple that we just baptized Saturday. We got to the member´s house and they gave us hot chimarrão, jackets, and a towel to dry off. When we got to the house of the couple we baptized, they had prepared a nice hot soup for us to eat. After the baptism on saturday a member gave us a tupaware thing full of bread, and cake. Last saturday we received 2 loaves of bread, snacks, and 15 reais to buy a meal. There have many more blessings of Lord. Mercies come every day by small and simple means. The gospel of Jesus Christ is a message of hapiness. But we will pass times of darkness. Know that at the end of the tunnel with come a wonderful light. While this week may have been the most difficult on my mission so far, it was the most fullfilling. On friday 2 of our investigators were legally married. On saturday we baptized them. I had the opportunity to baptize the husband and a man from our ward baptized the wife. Miracously one of the members bought a violin that he doesn´t play and has left in the missionarie´s apartment for us to play. For the baptism I played A poor wayfaring man´s of grief. I´m pretty sure the entire ward was there at the chapel to watch this baptism. everyone was super excited to see them be baptized. They couple will be a great blessing for this ward. The husband is preparing to receive the melquisedec priesthood this next saturday. Sunday this couple was confered as a member of the church of jesus chirst of latter day saints. There is no great joy than this, helping a family to enter into a convenant with god to follow Jesus Christ and change their lives forever. Do whatever it takes to be involved in this work. The world needs your testimonies and waits for your invitations. Go do awesome things.
